The idea of being alone can be kind of scary sometimes. You have only your thoughts to sit with you. I can say that being in my twenties has allowed me to really begin to learn who I am. And notice I said begin.
Usually, I do my best to avoid time by myself. I don’t like to be alone. I like having somebody to talk to and laugh with (That’s where Daisy chimes in). But even so, when I end up alone I usually just lay in my bed and try to avoid thinking by thinking about avoiding thinking. Works about 4% of the time but I still try it everytime just in case it changes one day…(fingers crossed). The more I’ve failed at avoiding my thoughts, the more I have had time to learn about what I like and don’t like, where I like to go and where I’d rather not be, who my real friends are and those who say they are but act otherwise. I’ve learned that seasons come and go and so do people. That was a hard lesson to learn. Sometimes we believe that once we form a good relationship with somebody that it should stay that way forever, and if it doesn’t then we must have done something wrong. True tlwe may have made some bad decisions when it comes to relationships, but we all have; but that is not the only reason why relationships end. Sometimes they end because God closes that door and is opening a new one. Sometimes we put ourselves at a standstill in life because we keep sticking our foot in the door that God is trying to close. We want to hold on to what we know because we don’t know anything else…and because we are afraid of what we don’t know.
Many times, when we finally end up going through new doors, problems arise. We then begin to question if this is the way that God wanted us to go. But God never said because we are walking in His will things will be perfect. We could be right smack dab in the middle of God’s will for our life when there is chaos going on all around us. That’s when we have to live and be led by our Spirit. (Even though it’d probably be in our favor to be led by the Spirit in all circumstances but let’s face it, sometimes we think we know what’s best for us and go based off of that instead. Insert chuckle here).
I feel like I am jumping all over the place, I don’t even know how I got to this topic, let me go back and look…one second…Oh okay, being alone, to learning about self to relationships, seasons, open doors, and then God’s will. Back on track now.
All that to say, when you feel alone, take advantage of it because I’m darn sure you will get up with more knowledge of who you are as apposed to when you first sat down. And remember, you are never alone. When you talk, God always hears your voice.. and He’s always listening.
Pup Update: She went on a car ride with me today but before that was in her pen most of the day because I was at work. Now we’re chilling in my room.